Realization.....

A friend made me realize a few things about myself tonight. I've always told others, before they enter my life, that once you become a friend of mine, I'll give my life for you. I am one to always put the happiness of others before my own. I understand that I need to be happy too, but to me, happiness comes when I can see that others are happy. Sometimes my personality comes out so strong that I am mistaken for being a BITCH or for being controlling. This is not me at all. I care for everyone who walks into my life. Sometimes, I just care too much. Everyone is their own person. They can do as they please, but sometimes my opinion on some things like smoking and drinking can come off too strong where it can sound controlling. When I am angry, you can tell. When I'm driving, it's when I shut up and start to speed even faster than I already am. I don't talk and I give attitude, but I don't like to talk about it in public. I am perfectly fine with talking one on one about why I am angry, I just don't like it in front of people, even if we are to the side. Anyways, what I realized about myself is that I do get angry fast, but it's not over stupid reasons, well sometimes I over exaggerate. But over all, I care A LOT for my friends!!!! I love them like FAMILY and I would do anything for them. Whatever the time, whatever the occasion, my friends can always turn to me. I recently decided to take time to myself. I thought that my friends would understand and though they let me be, they still had their thoughts on the reasons why I shouldn't isolate myself. I'm not hard headed so I listen, but sometimes I just want to be left to do as I please. I know some of you may feel the same way. I just feel like although I care about the insights of others, sometimes I just want them to let me be....but in the end I know it's all out of love and I am grateful for all of my friends!!!! So my time of silence is almost over, however I don't know when I will be able to talk to everyone again....I'm gradually, one by one, talking to each one of my friends. Thanks again to all of my friends. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! With all of my heart, and with this love, we will NEVER FALL APART!!! holla!!!